There’s a pain.

There’s a special pain you feel when you don’t seem to appreciate life.

When you deeply want to love everything.

But it just doesn’t feel that way.

When you’re looking around, trying to find wonder and happiness in everything.

When you realize that every second you’re not connected, seems like a wasted one.

More pain.

When you see the clouds, the birds, the cars, the rocks, and they’re nothing but clouds, and birds, and cars, and rocks.

That pain.

The pain of watching life slip away while you’re wasting it on worry and discontent and striving.

The pain of desperately wanting to regard the normal as special.

Because you know it is.

The confusion and the despair, longing to deeply connect because you just KNOW it’s possible.

The pain and the fear of not living completely, not fully, but only half, or even less.

The pain of wanting to be alive, 100%.

Up, instead of down.

Where to go, what to do?

Well, just realize:

That pain IS life.

You’re good.

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