Part of psychological therapy, or therapy in general, is to become aware of behavior that doesn’t suit you, trace it back to its source, and then change it or eradicate it.

Something like that.

I must say that I don’t even have one powerful example of that process in my life as a result of therapy (and there was A LOT of talking), so the whole idea has never really impressed me very much.

But at the same time, in the last couple of years, something quite interesting has been happening around behavior and triggers and all that stuff.

Ever since awakening has found a place in my experience, and especially since it has been more powerfully present, I’ve seen many habits in a very clear way, the moment they popped up.

Not because I’m deliberately looking for them, but because, well, I don’t know.

There are many, many things I did automatically that have passed the conveyor belt of awareness, and it seems that they can be quite easily transcended from there.

Again, this is not something I’m particularly interested in or try to achieve: it just happens.

It’s like getting a fresh chance of analyzing the usefulness of things.

Still need it? Fine.

No longer helpful? It can leave the system.

This morning I had an insight into one of the things that still automatically happen in this apparent life.

I realized that part of my human tightness is connected to the success of other people.

In other words: it makes me fucking cringe to read about people doing amazing things and being acknowledged for it.

And of course, social media is absolutely stuffed with that.

New clients here, new big car there, coaching from this exotic location, reaching the 7-digit income, losing the weight and exposing the six-pack.

My (learned) approach to that is to be silently offended, shut down, get rid of the post, and walk around with a sense of angry envy for a while.

Hey, it’s what happens, I’m not proud of it!

I hope this comes across as something I’m not REALLY taking personally or ashamed of, but it’s still a habitual phenomenon in the social realm that gets to me a lot.

This is a perfect example of clarity around something that I don’t need, and don’t want.

I don’t even care why it’s there (probably something about perceived scarcity or wanting to be special): seeing it arising and knowing it happens is enough.

Those things make it less of a big deal, and I know it’s the beginning of the end of that habit.

One of many that died before.

This all feels like a steady, gentle, and very natural dismantling.

If there’s a profound recognition of our true nature, and this sense of who we really are gets stronger and more prevalent, it’s obvious that many things that have been developed in order to guard us and keep us safe or make us stand out (physically but especially psychologically), lose their functionality.

It’s therapy in reverse.

You don’t go looking for the stuff that makes life overly complicated: you just do your thing and it simply shows up.

Very cool.

A really lazy, effortless way of sifting through habits and preferences and checking if you still need them or not.

No hard work, no messy digging.

Simple exposure in consciousness.

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